Therese~Jenkins aka Black Bird

I am writing this to vent and to bring some awareness to the enormity of this problem. I have recently given birth to a beautiful baby boy. ...

When you've aquired all the material posessions you've wanted and find yourself relying on no one. When the taste of your own cookin...

I know it'll never be. You live somewhere in the dark and don't allow the sun in. Sill, in my dreams you are free and we are one. ...

It's nearly four am and my thoughts are purple. I feel hopeless and powerful, defunct and hot blooded. I'm in love with a dream.

On my second pot of loose leaf damiana tea and feeling smooth. Billie Holiday sings me to a soft semi consiousness. It's been a while ...

I was there to see others but when you walked by I was liquid. I was locked on your movements, everything about you spoke to the deepest pa...

One of my favorite lyrics is "If you don't like the peach, then walk on by the tree". Why is it that some of our dates turn in...

One lesson we tend to learn throughout our life is that people grow into wiser, more responsable versions of who they used to be. Sadly once...

You know it all. You've done everything, been everywhere and are an expert on just about all there is. Wow! It's a shame that the...

I have to create something to look forward to. The three keys to happiness are 1) Someone to love 2) Something to do 3) Something to look f...

It seems I've ruffled a few feathers with some of my entries. Please don't jump to conclusions and presume you know the identidy of ...

My restless sleep was riddled with nightmares. In them I had no control, I was helpless to stop the terror around me. I awoke to dark skie...

When I met him he was fun, charming and brilliant. I looked forward to the weekends when I would join him and his lover for elaborate dinne...

I took a double dose of EFA's today, trying to tear down the cobwebs and sharpen my tools. I want to write all day. I want my visions to...

Well I just deleted a paragraph before I hit publish, after I re-read my entry I realised how negative it sounded. Since moving to moncton ...

Every few years we meet someone truly contemptible. A person so full of poison that they can't help but destroy those around them. It ca...

I feel like I've been hungry for too long. I've passed the point where it hurts and became apathetic. Now the cravings have return...

The most intimate part of a kiss is just before the lips meet, when you feel the breath and heat but not the pressure. Sometimes I loose mys...

A great opporunity has been put in front of me. The question is wether I am up to it. Do I want to go back to the black suits and upsweapt h...

I can feel the musical vibrations through my key board to my fingertips. Sitting here listening to Buddah bar, Pure Moods Chill Out Lounge. ...

I have had some upset over my last entry. I did not mean to say that those around me are stupid. What I'm trying to articulate is my nee...

Am I understood? Do I raise more than a smile with my words? Am I drowning in my own eloquence? I feel I may be alienating myself from pe...

Do you find music moves you? Do you feel it all over? Or just use one sense when experiencing it? I find that different music affects me ...

The sun rose again today as promised. My midnight rant just a distant memory now. With the sun comes hope. The ambient melody playing in ...

I'm indignant. I need to escape but i have made a pledge to myself, I will not self medicate, I will stand up and deal with life as it ...

Sometimes it's hard to write. When all the mundane issues of life stand in the way of my thought process. It can be difficult to find ...

I thought I would share my struggle to find like-minded individuals in this entry. If you are close enough to me to share debates on faith ...

I've become nocturnal. I find myself coming alive as the rest of the city sleeps. I've planned tomorrow's menu, chosen my clothe...

Too sick to sleep. If I were a country singer I'd have some great material, too bad I dislike it so much. My lids are heavy and my thr...

I'm torn. It's a kind of limbo I'm in. So I focus on what makes me happiest and wait till the smoke clears. Wellness will be my ...

Sometimes there is no right or wrong. There are situations that dwell completely in the grey area. This is one of those. Wouldn't it ...

I wonder if this blog makes me some kind of an emotional exhibitionist? Well if so then that's what I am. It's truely therepudic ...

How can I feel so lonely when I'm never alone? I have adoring friends, a devoted partner and a doting daughter yet I feel such an emptin...

I dreamt of you last night. No matter how many years pass or how many relationships are in between, I'm brought right back to you. I hav...

Sitting here listening to Norah Jones, Sipping on home made herbal iced tea. Life is sweet. There is something to be said for surrounding ...

April is almost over and spring is here. The buds are making their first appearance on the trees and the flowers in the garden are breaking...

The very first entry on this blog site was a question to myself. I wanted to figure out when one could call themselves "grown up"...

I wish our forefathers weren't such puritanicles. The amount of art and literature lost to the burnings and prohibitions of the past is ...

I think the most important thing we have to learn through out our lives is balance. Nature shows us how the slightest shift can change our ...

I believe I am directly connected to the sun. It's amazing how my moods are dictated by how many sun beams I'm exposed to. This wa...

Why is it that men find it so easy to turn their back on thier offspring? I have a close friend that is going through a divorce and shares c...

What makes you an artist? Is it a degree? A gallery showing? Or is it because you have made a career out of it? Some of the most artistic ...

So you wanted me to write about you so here it goes. I spent 3 years with you. I went from climbing to my goal to the deepest rut I have e...

If you ask any random aquantance of mine what their impression is of me they will undoubtedly say "she is so nice". I'm contin...

Although I tend to write about them occasionally I thought I'd make a little list and vent a bit, I mean that's what this outlet is ...

Since making the choice to remove as much negativity as possible from my life i have found a peace I never knew possible. I haven't bee...

"The end of the line approaches quickest when traveling the road of least resistance" ...

Running on a two hour nap and looking at a very full day. I had the sweetest dreams and they will keep me propelled through what lies ahead...

I've stopped wondering why the rich get richer and the poor get poorer, it's simply because the rich hold on to their pennies while ...

One of the most unattractive attributes you can have is a poor me, self serving way. The martyre on the cross. If we all took the time to ...

It's happening, the day has come when my daughter recieves birthday wishes and cheques in the mail from her relatives. I am estranged f...

We can share years of experiences together, we can be at the same place at the same time, we can breath the same air and taste the same food...

Ok so my writing is self indulgant and sweet but this is just a blog, not a best selling novel so deal with it. I have been in the process ...

Being a young single mother of one I raised my daughter with all the tools I had. She was an only child and never had any other parental fig...

I've been considering my own sexual evalution, the importance I've put on it during my life and the possability of being deprived of...

One of my favorite movie scenes appears in the award winning film "The Hours". Clarissa is in an emotional state because her soul ...

I must count myself very lucky. In my three decades I have experienced more love of varying varieties and degrees than most in a century. I ...

I wonder how we went from a lock and key diary to a world wide accessable, public blog. Do we feel so anonymous in this new lap top sociali...

When I was a child I believed that being a grown up was something that "happened" to you one day. I've been patiently waiting ...