Being blessed

One of the most unattractive attributes you can have is a poor me, self serving way. The martyre on the cross. If we all took the time to review our thoughts and feelings before rationalizing them, we would probably see how much we display these traits. It's a trap that some of us fall into quite regularly. You find yourself thinking 'what did I do to deserve that?'. Maybe nothing, but you can't rely on the cosmos to work it all out so that you get what you think you deserve. If you do you'll be waiting forever. Have you ever taken a drive and noticed all those seventeen year olds driving cars you could never afford?? Have you thought to yourself 'I'll bet daddy bought that for him on his 16th birthday' and bitterly scowled as you passed that poor boy?? Well the truth is he probably DID get it for nothing but he will never know the joy and feeling of accomplishment you get when you work for what you have. We all know someone so beautiful and charismatic that opportunity seems to constantly land in their lap, if we feel envious I suppose it is natural but you really can't fault them because they have been blessed, all we can do is try harder to use what we have been given to get to where we want to be. If you are reading this and thinking 'wow she must be very well rounded' you are half right, I feel all the same sour emotions as anyone else, I just think them through and put them where they belong. I would be a liar if I said I wouldn't be in heaven if some angel came to me with all the answers to my problems but I no longer dream it, wish for it or wait for it. I tredge through each day and somehow find the stamina to do it again tomorrow. I hope reading this enlightens just one person, then I will truly feel blessed.