Reflections

One of my favorite movie scenes appears in the award winning film "The Hours". Clarissa is in an emotional state because her soul mate and bff Richard is in the final stages of Aids related illnesses that are surely about to end his tragic yet romanticly artistic life. Clarrisa opens up to her daughter about her lost innocence. She says " I remember waking up that morning and thinking 'this is it, this IS happiness, and of course there will be more' but what I didn't realize is that it WAS happiness, it was THE moment". The first time I saw that scene I was blown away by her statement, it was so incredibly true. I recall a moment in highschool when I was thinking 'this is what I've been waiting for, finally', If only we could appreciate these times as they were happening and not only when we are in deep reflection. I can say that I do try to absorb it all now that I have a smidge more wisdom. I take more time to enjoy a moment and I try to not dwell on the darker side. Could be another sign of maturity, *sigh, I still have mixed emotions on that topic........